My Grievance Against My Life

Lately I feel like I live in a whole separate shadowy sleepless world apart from everyone else. Operating (or trying to anyway) at all hours. Just trying to get as much done as I can and trying not to be quite so upset about what I can't and work around it. Just a hazy existence full of looming deadlines and responsibilities to be juggled. Either I'm on the spot at school, 100% invested in other people at work, or I'm at home with Matt or at Noah's- being near them but not with them. We're all just too busy to be with each other.

Frenetic schedules are bad enough... but when you're finally in the presence of the people you ache to be in the presence of and neither of you have the time or energy to be emotionally present? That kills me.